Seemed to have hit the bottom with a thud .
I have not landed on my feet and I don’t know how to get back up.
Lack of sleep is just making it worse .
Running, praying and crying is my effort to get back on my feet .
But I can’t run far enough or pray hard enough to find my feet .
Reading my old blogs I can see the determination that I used to have but it’s all gone.
I can’t see the beautiful things I could see before it’s all out of my reach .
Drained of everything the only thing left is tears I want to say hope, but not sure if I even have that left in me.